Why do we put ourselves out HERE?

So after an emotional phone conversation this morning, I'm left wondering just how I feel about Blogs and any Internet journaling. Why do I feel this need to share All ofMe with the World Wide Web? Why do any of us do it?
I for one, find a little patch of sanity reading about other people's dilemmas: their inspirations, their ugly sides, their funny sides, their desires to duct tape their rambunctious toddlers to a wall, or to trade in their spouse for a speechless nanny.
If I were some JoeAnn Schmoe, who worked in the factory and had no reputation to uphold, blogging wouldn't be an issue.
However, I'm a midwife. At least, I'm just at the fine point of starting my practice. Do I really need to blog myself, my life, my emotions out for the public? I read other midwive's blogs and find reassurance from their words of self-doubt and frustration, their joys and how it all affects their families.
Perhaps we should be more guarded? We're opening ourselves up to even more judgment.

It's funny though. It took me a long time to feel comfortable around my senior midwives. They seemed so virtuous, so caring all of the time that I felt like they weren't human. How could I be myself around such saints? For me, I don't feel completely at ease with someone until they expose a little of their darker side. Just crack a joke. Bitch about your spouse, about traffic, something. These women are so darn professional that being snarky is a downright chore for them!
Another midwife I know talks about being a bit nervous when she has to meet up with a gaggle of midwives and to be passive aggressive, she'll smoke the odd cigarette to calm her nerves before she arrives. See, because smoking is a horrible sin to holistic care providers. We must practice what we preach. We must fight for the crown of purity.

And this reminds me of another reason why I left the practice I worked with. My biggest issue was that I wanted people to hire me for me. Not hire me because since I worked with X I must be just like X and when I fail to meet that expectation, the client is upset. I'm talking personality here, not function. And I've witnessed another midwife go through that and it was painful. It was this precarious dance of trying to find independence while trying to please everyone. And it didn't work very well. There was a lot of depression and resentment.
It was a vantage point for me. Like being the youngest and learning by watching the oldest struggle.
And I knew I wouldn't do very well trying to please everyone. I had to find my independence, my style, if you will, first.

And so here I am. I'm just me. Continually trying to do my best. But having some really shitty, hard days from time to time. Should I expose this about myself?
Is this process of blogging out my good and bad days going to come back and bite me?
As a care provider in my community, am I slitting my own throat?
Keeping your mouth shut seemed to be the stance of my senior midwives. That's professional.
And it's safe.

So where do you go to yak it all out? And I yak.
It's in my constitution, I do believe.
I might just throw in the Blogging towel.
I've had some hesitations since starting it. Don't know. I'll need to sit on this one.

I think I'll go find some more midwife blogs and see how they're doing today. Search for something outside of ACOG quotes and legislation articles. I'm looking for emotion.